Whenever I get sad, upset, confused, tired or angry.. I read this poem of mine, which I wrote at once.. I didn’t change any part of it later on, so it’s the purest product of my inner voice.. I just love it, cuz the darkness among these sentences is the only place I can see my very own spirit..
Today I face myself in the mirror
Tonight, again my picture of the night
Black, every dark color of my heart
Reminds me the bad old days of happiness
Never known myself but elation surrounds..
I feel the light of righteous in my eyes
But when I look at you, I just see a maze
Out of silence, crawls the sanity of science
A man of wisdom here in charge
A man of faith coming against anything en route
Hearing the magic of music
Don’t know what morrow will bring
Rhyme is taking my feelings there
Where I sit in black existence and see what happens
Staying out of every trouble in this mess
There my only restless soul again wakes
Blue lights of stars covering my eyes above
Elation surrounds but down inside it differs
Needs to be strong, needs to stay no wrong
The only place, place I can find old me
Again I face myself in the mirror
Tonight again my picture of the night
Dark, every black note of my song
These scales reminding me of bad old days
Daze, descended from heavenlike maze
Scenes I don’t love anymore…
Here therein lies anything
Your sound on every grid of darkness
Even emotions are blind, can not find you
Every corner of this place smells you
Now I have something to look for
Indeed I never got things to come after
So I return to my black room and pray;
“I need you, I need you and I want you”
Feels like morrow brings you too
Closing my eyes, restless soul cries
Deep in the voice of my lovely agony
I find not you but every single true…
It comes from the hunger for creation. The instinct that makes me superior and godlike inside. With creation, there would be no limitation.
As a generation of hi-tech and possibilities, we now have the ability to create unseen worlds. The cyber universe has almost anything and everything, above reality and even surreality can ever exist. It's the ultimate notion that binds a human mind's focus on perfection. Like Mary Shelley's Frankenstein, I always wanted to create, or at least build.
I loved playing with legos; combining meaningless pieces together to make one meaningful masterpiece. I do still love, but the word "meaning" elevates in one's mind as we grow wiser, than that of a child's. Codes, the ones that programmers use to create softwares, are the sole abstract form of legos. They are meaningless on their own, and need a creative -yet hungry- mind to form something. They are the stones and sticks of the digital existence. The place where one's own entity can dwell.
Apart from these.. I'm currently a mind that lives someone else's life. It's not my life and doesn't have a meaning. But deep inside within, I know that someday all the things that I've learnt and been through will combine, and serve me for the great purpose. The purpose that holds mankind's evolutionary inevitable future; questions that are bound to ask and the edges of our imagination in the infinite galaxy. This is what makes me a human, and every single person should carry the burden of having such mind. And all those who lack the instinct and curiosity, shall be the servants of those that I call superior.
Yet another social networking experience; we now have ollaa, a simple, quick and useful sharing platform, at service. Programmed by two senior CS students at Bilkent University, ollaa is a finely coded and smoothly designed iPhone application that lets you share your activities in a different way. I will now discuss what it brings to our socially integrated digital lives with just released beta version.
ollaa has a unique way of putting our real lives on the internet. Apart from other services, it allows us to share what we are doing, along with where and with whom. After choosing from six categories (at least for now) of actions; listening, watching, buying, playing, drinking and eating, we give the specific detail, take a photo, choose friends we are doing that activity with, pick a location and there we have it. A good looking post appears on the feeds screen of your followers. These posts are so smartly designed that actually makes me want to reload the feeds screen frequently and post more and more :)
What makes ollaa even more interesting is the idea of “trends in your town” experience, which is not operational at the time being. It’ll give you the feedback of actions which are commonly done by people in your city, so that you’ll keep it up with the “fashion” of your town. This section is definitely going to be the part I will check everyday. I’d be glad to see daily, weekly and perhaps even monthly trends.
Most social networking applications won’t allow us to share things the way we want via other services like Facebook and Twitter. ollaa makes this integration very well by letting you share each post on Facebook, Twitter and also Foursquare. Therefore all your friends can see what you post, not only the iPhone owners. The tweet or facebook post is quite clever, short and not eye-boggling. And Foursquare integration is so cool that you won’t have to sign in to Foursquare and check-in after posting, ollaa does that for you with also sharing the photo on Foursquare, too.
The way ollaa lets us share our activities is highly appreciateable. Though this innovation surely requires even more interest, by improving it according to user feedbacks and keeping it up to date.
Having used the ollaa application on my iPhone 4 for just one day, I drew some conclusions about the way ollaa works and made a feedback about it. I’m sure most of them are already being added, nonetheless I thought I should write them anyway. These are the things I guess will help ollaa get even better after beta phase.
- Returning to the top of feeds screen by double tapping “Feed” button
- “Reading” action (Let’s not forget the books and the magazine :])
- The option of not posting the photo itself to Foursquare (The photos are taken into the venue’s photo gallery, which is not always wanted)
- A better “find friends” service (Especially Facebook)
- Adding a comment to the post before posting (For instance: Mert is playing
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- Like and comment notifications, and even post notifications for specified friends
- An option to choose which actions I want to to see in my feed (Eating posts
outnumber the others, so the user might get bored)
- User comments for specific actions.. I mean, if I want to watch a movie, read a book or play a game, I should be able to search that action in ollaa and see user comments which may include where to buy/do/find.
- Support for other platforms such as Android, Windows Phone and even Symbian (my gf wishes so :\ )
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some things are eventually inevitable.. as we hear the drums of what is to become, we should prepare for it, from deep within our hearts to the consciousness of our minds.. and when it’s time, tears form drops unraveling this sadness, this pain..
pain paints us black, strikes us with no choice of vengeance and blinds us. but this is not something we should avoid. instead, we should march through it with great power and control. we can alter it, we can have our blood “immune” against what was once unknown and now is not. the presency of pain is not inevitable, but it should be suffered for a sufficient amount of time.
once you gain this immunity, suffering becomes satisfactory. unexpectedly, you want to take your time when sorrow knocks your door. it’s now just an indulgence..
just hear what your inner voice whistles.
11.06.2011 - 15:31